Long Time No Post...

I think it has been forever since I actually wrote something on this blog. But I really felt the need to share with everyone today. I don't know if any of you have ever been to a child's funeral or not but I attended one this morning. 1st let me tell you that when I was a junior in HS one of my boyfriends/best friends moved to Russell, Kansas because his dad got a job there. In November of our Senior year he was driving home from a party and fell asleep, crossed the line and had a head on collision that he did not survive. I can remember everything about this like it happend yesterday. It was 16 years ago but it is still so clear. I can remember the phone call I got that Saturday morning from someone who thought she was my friend. All the phone calls I made after that, the trip to Russell, the funeral, the trip home, going back to school. I remember how hard it was and I thought I would never get over it. So I can only imagine how all of the kids that were there today felt. His name was Justin Martin and he was 2 weeks older than Chase. Chase has gone to school with him through grade school, MS and played ball with him and they both played the trumpet. He had a heart transplant at 5 months old and had some problems off and on. But got over everyone of them and led life like a normal kid. This was completely unexpected. I don't think there was a dry eye in the place. There were a group of girls setting behind me that were crying and carrying on and they were there together. I know a lot of the kids walked down from the school to the church so their parents were not there. The way these girls were carrying on...their parents should have been there. One of Chases friends went with us because his mom couldn't go. But we know them very well and she knew he would be ok going with me. I know people question a lot why God takes Children from us. But he obviously knows what we don't and knows how to take care of it. Being there made me want to hold my kids tighter at night and never let them go. I know that that is impossible to do but we all need to remember that anything can happen any day and to always cherish the moments we have together.